hey all, it's me Lorelai, (they/faer) Agender/Genderfae

last august (08-2022) I had facial surgery in order to help with feminisation as well as also correcting some deformities of my skull due to a pretty nasty fall I had years prior.

I felt good about myself for a while after the surgery, but now I look in the mirror and I literally don't feel like anything has been done. I'm feeling so ugly and just hate going out, interacting with people, and hate others seeing me. I want a revision but I can't afford to take time off of work for recovery.

My mental health has declined, I started drinking again hard after being 9 years sober, I've put on about 15lbs, and I shaved my head on a whim so now I'm wiggling it.

I know that my experiences are my own, but I do know that others have felt similarly to how I do. What has helped you? I'm circling the drain over here.

much love 🖤