To preface, I'm 21 years old and am AMAB. I never really began thinking of being trapped in a guy's body until recently thanks to my friends expressing themselves and venting to me about their experiences, as well as a little help from replaying my favorite game Life Is Strange, which is most likely the reason why I began questioning in the first place.

I've been referring to myself as He/They for a good 3 months and I'm loving being called "They", but I still haven't actively done anything as I'm still in the closet, so I'd like to list a few things I feel may or may not be dysphoria.

1; I'm unsure if it's because I used to be bigger when I was younger, but when I began doing Karate around age 11 and my body shrank, my chest didn't, and it's confusing me. I kinda like having a slightly bigger chest, considering every time my Dad has his shirt off his seem smaller, but I haven't really tried on a bra or something considering my only source is my Mom and hers are much bigger. I also have a weird thing where every time we have milk in the house, I tend to have too much and we keep needing to get more. Unsure if that's related.

2; I've been playing as female characters in games A LOT when I have the availability to. For example, I play Destiny 2, and my main character is a masculine Exo Titan, but recently I've been playing as a female Human Warlock, and subsequently creating a Human female Hunter.

3; I've had an amazing dog since my Grandfather unfortunately passed away 3 years ago, and it wasn't until recently (2 weeks ago ish) where being referred to as his "brother" didn't sit right and made me feel uncomfortable. I can't bring up the courage to correct my parents and say "sibling" instead because I don't know what they'd say.

4; I absolutely HATE being warm, yet I love summer. I haven't actively looked into it as it may just be claustrophobia, but there's been times where I have very bad flareups even whilst wearing Summer clothing and I'm frantic to find something cold. I'm a lot more comfortable having a fan in my vicinity, wind blowing in my direction, or just an AC on; but I recently learned being consistently/more cold is a woman thing and I'm more than willing to try it to stop feeling so warm all the time.

5; I'm unsure if it's simply because my upbringing was surrounded more by girls (especially in middle school and high school) than it was men, but the way I stand has me with my arms crossed and me like, with a knee bent/being kneeled on so I'm a little tilted? It's hard to explain on an app like this. But it feels very comfortable.

6: I try to actively sit with a leg crossed even though I'm aware it causes my foot to "fall asleep". It feels a lot more comfortable than sitting normally but I've been unsuccessful with a proper womanly cross legged position.

7; I have a mild desire to be a woman and I often tell my Mother I'm jealous of things she says regarding her womanhood at the end of some conversations. I'm surprised she hasn't noticed.

8; I've recently began hating my... part. It's really more prominent when I'm wearing bottoms i.e. pants/shorts where even when flaccid it shows a clear spot that it's there and it exists. Sadly though at this point it's my only source of relieving tension but I don't get as much satisfaction as I used to.

I've done a ton of research regarding dysphoria and I'm certain at least a quarter of this counts? I'm still fairly new to all of this and I've been a proud ally of the community as a whole for 10 years, so I'd love to have some kind words in form of answers/assistance regarding my predicament.