MTF, 32, HRT since 1/19/23.

Donald Trump got 90% of the vote in my county (east Texas) and needless to say I'm scared about going out dressed and presenting in a way that feels authentic to me. Even with makeup on I don't pass well, and I would certainly be "visibly trans". With tomorrow being the day of visibility, I'm thinking about it even more now. I don't want to continue living this double life, only dressing up and doing my makeup at home but going out as a "regular guy". It's very dysphoric and depressing. But I worry about something happening if I do go out the way I want. But a small part of me just wants to say f it, and throw on makeup and a dress and walk outside, and if something happens something happens, at least I'll die as myself. I also occasionally drive Uber in Dallas, and even tho Dallas is a more progressive area for sure it's still fear inducing because I have God knows who getting in my car and I'm locked in my car with them for however many minutes. I'm sure almost everybody in this group has been in this situation (not necessarily the Uber part) and I'm wondering how y'all handled it. There are no wrong answers, only advice, including the blunt and critical kind.