some days i want to be the manliest man i can be, because i was born that way. those days i'm the roughest, toughest dude i know. and some days i'm a girl, i end up shaving, dressing and putting my hair up all cute and doing a little makeup. the only way to make sense of it is to give these people names and let them take over when they want. otherwise i'd be having a constant identity crisis. there's the guy, the girl, and me. me wants to be left alone, the guy wants to workout drink protein shakes and talk to women, the girl likes to starve herself to stay little and talk to guys and go shopping. is this even dysphoria at this point? or am i just severely mentally ill and self diagnosing a personality disorder? i was in psychotherapy but when i said i wanted to fix my dysphoria she told me i should transition, so i stopped seeing her. i don't know what i want anymore