So when I was much younger, probably around the age of 11-13(I’m 27 now). Me and my bestfriend at the time who had been friends since we were 4, had just started “noticing” eachother.

When we would hang out, and play, sometimes we’d get a little more curious. And start to touch on eachother. It would start by silly little things like flashing our penis’ then laughing. Daring eachother to poke the other’s. Sometimes in his pool we’d swim without our trunks. And then as we got a little more experienced we started jerking eachother off and sucking each others dicks.

We never really talked about it with eachother. It was just something we did for fun and never told anyone about. We lost touch as we got older and I haven’t seen or spoken to him in a good 10 years. I liked girls then, and I still do like girls now. I have a long term girlfriend that I love whole heartedly.

But in the last 2-3 years I’ve noticed myself getting off to gay porn, gay subreddits, having online masturbation friends. Like I said, I love my girlfriend and without a doubt still attracted to her. But it’s something about getting off to gay porn or with other guys that I love.

I couldn’t ever see myself pursuing a relationship with a guy. And I have a hard time seeing myself ever being physical with a guy again although with the right situation I could be tempted to be sexual with a guy. But I guess I’m bi-sexually aroused when it comes to porn. And that’s something I’ve never told anyone in life besides you guys lol.

If you stuck around this long thank you. I’m open to talking more and answering questions if anyone had them.