This is my first post here on Reddit, but it's an important one.

I have a best friend, my bro, who is also one of my roommates. We have a ton of stuff in common and he inspires me to be better in a lot of aspects in my life. He's my homie, my go-to guy for nearly everything. He would be my best man at my wedding and he makes me use my brain all the time because of the conversations and debates we have. I really do love him as a brother, I'll forever be his wing man when he needs one and I will always be there for him and his family no matter what. It's a friendship I cherish more than just about any other relationship in my life, family or friend.

My problem is that I've been crushing on him hard since the pandemic started and we've been forced to spend even more time with each other. That has led to me getting jealous from time to time, irate because of him and depressed because I don't feel like he is in our friendship as much as I am and that he's changed since we started spending more time together. It also has led to me judging him for some of the girls he's fucked and dated. He told me today he was going to get back on Tinder and my heart instantly sank and I again gave him shit for trying to find dirty girls just to fuck. I agreed to help him take some pics for his account, but I didn't do it just to be his bro - I also did it because we will use my phone to take those pics, meaning I get to save and look at them all whenever I want. There definitely was an alterior motive there, which made me think hard.

The worst part is that I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that he's definitely straight and no matter how much I wish it, want it or manifest it, he and I will never be a thing.

I know im probably reading into it, but not knowing where I stand with him, whether he feels the same about our friendship, really gets me in my own head and creates drama neither of us needs or wants. To top it off, I've always thought he was sexy and hot, and I think about him often in compromising situations, even a lot when I masturbate. I can't keep my eyes off his bulge ever. He's definitely my type, physically, emotionally and mentally, which also adds to the situation n which I find myself.

So my question is, how do I get past this crush? I'm afraid if I let it go on too long it will end a friendship that is as important to me as any family member.

Any sage advice or just a comment telling me to get over it and myself would be greatly appreciated.