So I am now a lates 50’s guy. Years of office work and a few injuries have taken their toll. I used to be extremely athletic, fit and very toned. I did most sports and worked out 6 days a week and loved it. I could take my shirt off and feel comfortable and not self conscious. Even being quite introverted I was very confident in my body and often somewhat unclothed at gay bars etc.

Then I aged, took an exhausting office job and had some health things come up. One of the drugs, not solely that I’m sure, resulted in a hefty case of gynecomastia. Now I am extremely self conscious and would not be caught dead with my shirt off.

I’ve let it ruin my social life and get into my own head that since I can’t fix that area at the gym there’s no reason to try to stay fit elsewhere either. It’s a been a downward spiral. I can’t stand my own body and can’t imagine anyone else could.

I’ve looked at surgery and it’s damn expensive... and most gay guys don’t seem interested in someone my age anyway, so again, it’s a “why bother” running around in my head.

Just seeing if others have been in the same boat. What you’ve done or how you’ve coped etc.

And yes I already suffer from depression and so picking myself up to to the right things is mentally overwhelming at times. Or maybe they are all just fucking excuses.. either way... I’m in a dark place.