Hey guys I really need some advice and words. Recently somebody told me that I'm more gay than them due to the fact that I slept with men more than women. This brought back very bad memories and feelings to when I was a kid, when I would get builled for liking and doing different things and called gay because of it. I have always liked women, I even had strong feelings for several, but always felt terrified and nervous whenever I try to talk to them I'll try to get some sleep with me, nothing but fear and anxiety came up. And because of it I feel great shame and embarrassment that I can talk to men better than women, it makes me feel like can't relate to any of my other guy friends and deep down if I do come out are just prove everybody thought of me from the beginning. I know what I like and I know what makes me tick but just this one single thought deeply bothers me, it scares me. Any advice?