Sooooo... recently my classes and internship decided to hold my arms while my personal life punched me in the gut. Repeatedly. With brass knuckles.

While on a drug fueled escapade, one of my roommate was hinting at fooling around, but he is dating a good friend of mine. She has been through some hard shit and I couldn't dream of hurting her like this. I am all up for people experimenting with me and figuring shit out, but I have a conflict of interest as one might say.

I could just blame it on the drugs, but maybe if he does make advances, I don't know how I should react. I want to gently say no without damaging our friendship. I tell myself everyday that of all the times I've fucked up, I can't do this. Plus I have a slight attraction to my other mate anyway.

I just don't know if I can remain strong . My family issues, and possible career opportunities are already stressing me the hell out and sometimes I cry to sleep. I can't think clearly anymore. I stay up all night thinking about everything. I see that I have to be awake in a few hours so I just don't sleep that night. I drink most of my weekends away, just so I can have some time when my mind isn't going a mile a minute.

I feel myself falling apart, but I just don't know what to do. Any suggestions on how to deal with him would be great, I haven't been this unsure of myself before.