My bf (24M) is giving me (28M) the silent treatment. This is out of character for him. The only time he gives me the silent treatment, is when he's busy during the day (and he always lets me know ahead of time) or when he's at the gym. So, for him to basically ghost me and leave me on read for 1 full week is out of character for him. Out of 7 days we haven't spoken, he only read my messages for 1 of those days, and said nothing. It's very strange. I feel like I'm to blame, because when we were just friends I stupidly opened up to him, about hating when guys ghost me or ignore me and play with my emotions, and now it feels like he's doing this to make me jealous or doing this because he's made up another accusation about me or something. How should I handle this? We're long distance, and I was planning on moving to his town. So, the fact that we already weren't speaking for the last 7 days, and now those wildfires affected his area (if you know, then you know there are several towns affected, not just his - but he's alright, because he's been posting on social media constantly, even today).

But - since I can't directly talk to him (since he leaves me on read), how should I handle this??? I'm already angry with myself for trusting him, after 4 years of trying to heal from my past abusive relationships and my trust issues. And now, I stupidly opened up to a guy who's once again, like all my exes - admits he's jealous (I became polyamorous because I hated when guys controlled and abused me, and now a guy is jealous of me being poly, yet gives me the silent treatment because of an accusation that isn't true - which he realized after I explained this to him weeks ago).

I'm not only angry with myself, but I'm also resenting him. And yes, the wildfires are going on, but he's left me on read since January 2nd; we spoke briefly on January 7th or 8th (when he got back to California, from his hometown in Texas, where he spent Christmas).

But, how should I handle this, since I'm not able to explain any of this to him, right now? I tend to make YouTube storytimes and turn my anger and sadness into music to heal myself.