I'm currently travelling the world for a long time, and although it wasn't really my thing until recently, I've started misbehaving, and whenever I land in a country where you're not facing jail time or worse for being gay, and there's a gay sauna nearby, I'm always tempted to go there because I'm getting bit lonely and at least I get to see... things.

But there are three main issues:

1. I'm not super attractive (I'm not fat, bit I'm not masculine or slim either and my face is meh...)
2. I'm a grower & my d*ck is shy, so there is no way I would be there naked as many others.
3. When I am around darkrooms and I hear somebody taking it, it's super hot, it will make my d*ck hard, but at the same time I am telling myself "who am I kidding, my d*ick wouldn't make anyone moan like this..."

My d*ck is around 6 inch (and I use condoms 56), but a) I'm shy to touch somebody without them doing it first, b) I get nervous and my d*ck won't get fully hard and c) when (even if) I get fully hard, my d*ck is actually bit smaller because he gets bended into "banana" shape.

Somebody advised me to take a half of Viagra to be less nervous and get my d*ck hard, but it had no (positive) effect on me, it just made me sick - I had super headache, had massed up vision, and my leg was shaking.

So what do I do? Should I forget about Saunas and move on?