Hello, I’ve been in my first relationship with a guy for over a year now. At first it was really great then I started to find out things about his past. I also found that he was on Grindr one night after he told me that he had to go to work but he actually stayed at home. He held this lie for a long time until his mother actually told me that he was home the whole time. H said he just went on Grindr to get pics and jack off but his profile said “hosting”. I knew I should have cut it off right then and there but he swore to me that’s all it was. This created a lot of mis trust the entire time. We fought a lot after that and when things were good he asked me to move in with him and I did, and he promised that I could trust him. Then when we would argue I would find him on Grindr again. After one of our big fights I came to him and apologized for everything I said and did wrong even though I was broken. Prior to this he promised me that he would not get in grindr again. So while we were still in the quiet stage of hurting and healing I pretended to take a nap on the couch and I downloaded the app and was messaging him. He go up to make sure I was still sleeping while this was happening. When he saw that I was “asleep” he continued. Then when I called him out on it and showed him he swore that it would never ever happen again. So after months go by of us arguing and me trying to find ways to trust him I found out that he has been coming on Reddit and soliciting sex and blow jobs and agin he posts “hosting”. He again swore to me that he never met up with anyone and only did it for pics to JO but there were so many private messages about linking up and him blowing 2 guys. He’s told me before that he doesn’t really like to give BJ’s and only swallows if he can really trust the person. He tells me so often that he loves me and I’ve done more for him than anyone has in his whole life. I’ve spoken to him about an open relationship and told him if he wants to do those things we could talk about it and he swears that he doesn’t, that he has never cheated and that he loves me and wants me to trust him. What do I do?