I am accepting that I am a total bottom. Tried topping and have never enjoyed it and made me uncomfortable. I have had a lot of anxiety lately over this guys I was dating who was said he was a “Top”but then became verse top, verse, now he says he is a vers bottom. I unfortunately had to end it then.

It was hard but I am not trying to be in a relationship with another bottom and topping makes me feel like I’m preforming a service and I get no pleasure.

I see most gay men want to bottom at sometime even if only occasionally and maybe is apart of being gay. But I think if you like it alot sometime there is a chance you could be a sub bottom like me in the future. Also think most guys really like it more than topping, and deep down really want it.

But maybe it means I won’t find anyone who I cant be in a relationship with because most guys want to bottom or are bottoms. (I know 2 tops and 2 bottoms can be in a relationships but I don’t want that seems pointless)

I don’t know if I’ll be able to find a boyfriend who is just a top and him actually be that long term.