I have been oral and bottom curious for as long as I can remember, but have only hooked up with another guy once before. We took turns stroking and sucking (I really enjoyed sucking 😋), and he licked and fingered me a little. We didn't have any lube or rubbers, and his fingering had gotten a bit uncomfortable... so even though I really wanted to bottom... and he really wanted to mount me, we ended things with oral. It never worked out for us to meet up again and we eventually lost touch, life happened, I was married and started a family.

All these years later... I never been able to stop thinking about it, even though I haven't hooked up again. It led to me finally buying my first toy. I bought it to try to satisfy my apparent oral fixation and desire to give oral again. So I bought a realistic penis dildo with a suction cup. I've played with it orally a few times and am so tempted to play with it anally... but it might just be too big. It's 8.5in. However, my question is about anal virginity... is my anus going to be "normal" after it has a penis or something the size and shape of a real penis in it?

Sorry for my long post, thanks for reading it. I'd love to chat if you're interested. 😊 Thanks