So for context I lived my whole in a really small town discovered I was gay at 18 the year I moved away to a new city to go to uni. I discovered I was gay just by thinking and talking to friends, I haven’t kissed anyone or any of that. 3 years have passed by and I’m still in the same spot. The first 2 years I was trying to meet someone, using all the apps, going to bars with friends of friends who I knew they liked me. All cause I felt like I had to have my first time with a boy, but that didn’t happen so this year I told myself I wasn’t going to try any more of it happen hear if not I’ll keep living my life. And to be honest I had one of the best years, had fun alone and with friends, I never felt alone and went to sleep crying. Until now, the other day I watched a gay movie with my cousin and all this feelings started to appear again, the feeling of missing out, the idea of sheeting a bed with a guy, the feeling of being intimate with someone. Idk what to do now, should I push myself again or do I let this feelings go and let life do its thing?