So I identify as bisexual. But I've only ever been with men. I explored sexually on Grindr for about 2 years then stopped for a while and then got back on a few months ago. I've been with about 30 people in some capacity. I'm a top and topped about nine. The rest were either receiving head, swapping head, or just jerking off. I stopped the first time because I ended up getting HPV and had to wait for those to go away. Which they are. I just recently got HSV1 genitally which I took the medication to help get through the initial outbreak and have no symptoms currently. With my research I've noticed it's not as bad as I thought it was.

But since I still live with my family, I had at the head of my bed my medication. And apparently my mom found it. And was freaking out and upset that I had these have a drugs knowing what they were for. It's had a long conversation today about how I was ruining my life with hookups.

Kind of in the line of "why would you do this to us?" "You could have been dead in a ditch? Clearly you weren't being safe because you have an STD for life now"

I did a lot of things to try to stay safe. I had a friend of mine who I would tell if I was going to someone's house or place. That way someone knew my whereabouts. So of course my mom was talking about how bad of a friend that was who didn't stop me from doing this behavior.

I mention that I'm okay with identifying as bisexual. My mom of course thinks that bisexuality doesn't exist. That you're either gay or straight. Or that bisexual people just wants to have sex with everybody.

They still say they love me and accept me for who I am however it does come with those weird stipulations of why was I hooking up and how dare I do that something so dangerous.

I am 29. I never had sexual activity until 26 because I grew up in an abstinence until marriage family. So this really gets my parents who thought that I was going to be celibate until marriage which I've never even really dated.

I have a very good professional life in the community. They also kind of use that against me and the sense of saying why would I jeopardize that by being on a hookup site and meeting up with people who might recognize me.

So anyways, I don't know if any of this really makes sense or I'm just venting. But not sure if anyone else have experienced stuff like this before. So I guess I've technically come out to them..... Even though it's been kind of awkward. I've accepted myself for being bisexual but don't feel I need to be out and about about it because it's my personal business what my sexual orientation is. I've also accepted myself for getting HSV-1 which I have found to be much less serious than I thought. But they like to throw HIV and other STD risks as if I'm not taking those seriously and being careless and reckless. Also saying how the people on Grindr are gross, unsafe, etc. Even though I found some people to be very kind and decent friends who have fun from time to time.

Anyway, any thoughts, advice, or encouragement?