Im bi and i like dudes as much as i like women. Theres many times i get along with guy but it goes no where cause im discreet and family would kill me( all extremely religious) i rely on them too and for accomodation for uni i live with grandma who doesnt want me going out late and stuff. Its killing any attempt of relationship or freedom cause i need to follow "rules" and "be religious". What do i do? I love my family but they will never accept me if i told them. Id lose so many people too. I feel sick from this horrible position im in. In future idk what will happen but its not gonna be happy. I only wish for a better life but i cant. Sorry if i ramble on for a while bur i really need to talk to someone. Maybe some guidance on what to do and how to deal with stuff in future.