I've lived my entire life loving women (although ive remained a virgin up until recently not really by choice though just women around me didn't find me attractive). So, I met a ftm on a dating app and we both hit it off so I ended up going over to his place.

We cuddled, made out, sniffed each others pits, humped each other, gave each other oral, fed each other and had an over GAY experience and I LOVED it. We saw each other a total of 13 times since the first time and I never get tired of it. I even went as far as walking around his block holding hands with him and pretending I'm openly g**. For now, we're dating in private and he's cool with going incognito in public with me (we still make out in dressing rooms and do dirty things from time to time in public) but I just lOVE it too much.

He copies me and my lingos, imitates me and we have some of the absolute craziest s*x. Every time I see him, I hate leaving and every time we talk I immediately get an erection that lasts for hours on end.

This isn't a troll post, im honestly in a crisis right now as ive never even entertained the thought of being g** or bi and this is all so different to me but before I do anything more drastic I need to know. Ive already thought about marrying him in private and he's my husband but no one knows about it and we adopt a child and raise it together.