Hello everyone. Yes I'm straight curious, and I'm going to keep that label. I 20M and a top, have been curious about my sexuallity for a while now. I've only ever liked dudes butt's, faces and bodies. I don't like dick, so I obviously don't like sucking dick either. A few gay people I spoke to kept trying to get with me to try and make me try to suck dick and I simply refused everytime because I don't want to. I've never been with a dude up to this point.

Now, I've been speaking to 1 dude(22m bottom), who has been awesome. He actually compliments me, respects me treats me with dignity(which I'm not used to since I'm not particularly attractive in my opinion). He respected the fact that I don't want to suck him back. He looked good for a dude so I thought why not try something with him. He's accepting of me so it should be fine. So I invited him over to hang out today. He treated me better than most woman, but the part I care more about was, at one point he asked if "do you want to try touching my dick? But you don't have to I don't mind" and I decided ill try it, then I asked what does it taste like since I was kinda curious about that. And tried sucking it, I actually tried, and absolutely do not like sucking dick AT ALL, he laughed and said "it's fine don't worry, I'm not here to get sucked off anyways" and he kept doing me, I was shocked that someone actually didn't mind me not liking something since the community has just been so toxic to me.

This guy is single handedly the only guy I'd have sex with. He's the only one who treated me right out of the community. No offence to any of you who are decent people.

Now the problem is, I think I like this dude. And I can't explore this possibility since I'm leaving the country for a few years in Dec. So I guess idk what else to do other than go back to who I was before, straight curious, or just straight and continue with my life while talking to the guy whenever we can. Anyone been in a situation like this?