Hi everyone,

I'm 30 years old, gay, and demisexual. I feel alone and haven't had any relationships before, but I do have one experience. I live in a homophobic country where homosexuality is a crime, and I don't feel that I fit into the standards of the gay community.

I feel sick now. I've lost my happiness and am living a sad life.

I'm struggling with my identity as a gay person, which is causing me depression. I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to about my situation except you all.

I started to feel I would end up alone, and that was a horrible feeling.

I can’t breathe really, I need some help.

I was dreaming about finding love one day but I lost the hope.