Went to drop off soup for my boyfriend tonight and he wasn't back yet. Lights all off, everything dark, home empty. I cried. For a moment I felt what it would be like without him here.

We haven't tied the knot yet because I felt too young and both of us weren't ready. But even if we do, which we're trying now, it would take at least 18 months for him to even become a resident. That's if everything goes right, which we all know now it won't.

Does he just stay in NYC or LA for the next 4 years? I have no clue what we to do. Are blue states even safe. He's talking with his attorney but we are lost.

He has been here since he was 3. Yet somehow living here his whole life is not enough. What the fuck America. What the hell is going on?