Hi guys. So recently I’ve developed a crush on a (straight) guy. I say straight because I’m still unsure about our situation. I have known this guy for a while but was closer with his twin brother. Never in all of the time that I’ve known him did I think he was attractive until we unexpectedly started to get closer. I see him at least 3x a week because we play volleyball together in a large group. He gave me his number one day because he wanted to play on my team. Every now and then he would text me before we played just to make sure he would be on my team. This past week, a group of us stayed outside the gym after we played, and made plans to go eat. I asked if he wanted to come because he was part of the conversation and I like to make sure everyone feels included. He let me know he has things he needs to take care of at home and was going to head out. He gave a small side hug and went on his way.

While all of us were about to head out. Our friend’s car broke down. Our volleyball community tries to be helpful with alot of things so everyone got out of their cars trying to find and fix the issue. It was freezing outside so I went to a friend’s car and we were enjoying the heater having a conversation. I suddenly get a call and it was him saying the he actually wanted to go. I let him know the location and he said he would meet us there. I hung up and went back my convo with my friend. I realized it might be a little while til we go because of the car trouble so called him back and he said he would just wait there. Again we end the convo and I go back to talking with my friend. He then calls me back saying if I wanted him to come and swoop me. I let him know sure but he would have to drive me back to my car if that was ok. He was cool with it and said he would be back to the gym in about 10 mins. We hang up and I wait with my friend. He pulls up and I hop in the truck and we head to the restaurant. On the way we make conversation asking things about each other because this is the first time spending time together outside of a volleyball setting. We pull up to the place and walk in. We order our food and sit down to eat. He ends up going to the restroom to wash his hands and I wait for him at the table (I had hand sanitizer in my bag). He comes back to sit when our other friends show up. We all sat together and somehow got on the topic of being gay. One of my friends told my crush “you know I thought you were gay when I met you”. He proceeds to say “you know maybe, I don’t know”. This kind of shocked me but i figured ehh it’s whatever doesn’t pertain to me. After a little while he taps my shoulder and asks if I’m ready to go. I was, so we head out and left our friends. In the car he continues the conversation on the topic of being gay and starts asking me a bunch of questions. He asked if I was single and what my type was. I let him know my type. (He falls in line with what my type is) and he tells about his past relationship. He asked what I like in terms of sex and let him know. I like gentle passionate sex. I can top or bottom depending on who I am with but I’ve only bottomed a handful of times in all my life. I am very picky on who I bottom for. He understands and lets me know I’m glad you know your worth. Don’t let anybody tell you or treat you other wise. He continues with telling me how he loves the type of person I am. I’m not afraid to be my self or let someone know how I feel, and he appreciates that. We also got into some other deep conversation but that involved some trauma. By this time we pull up to my car and end our conversation. I thank him for the ride and go to get out of the car. He puts it in make as I’m getting out and says wait. Gets out of the car and comes to my door where I am standing gathering my things and asks if he can please hug me. I accept and he gives me a very tight and caring hug. He also asks how far is your drive and are you going to be okay getting there. I nod my head yes. He then asks are you sure. I just want to make sure you can get there ok. I smile and laugh and let him know I do the drive everyday. ( I live about 25-30 mins away from the gym we play at) he says okay and gets in the truck.

Fast forward to this past Sat. We ended up getting picked up to play on a team for a tournament the next day and I called him to ask if he had a jersey I could barrow. When he answers my call he starts the conversation with “hey boo”. I was taken back for a second but continued the conversation. He lets me know that he does and I could come pick it up. I had plans to go out that night and when he sent me his address I realize he lives down the street from the club I was going to be at. So before heading to the club I head to his place to pick up the jersey. Once I got there I had to pee really bad and asked if I could use his restroom. He politely says of course and invites me in. I use the restroom and greet his twin and his twins girlfriend. We make small talk for about 5 mins and say our goodbyes. He lets me know he may need help waking up in the morning so to keep calling him to make sure he is awake.

Fast forward to the tourney day. We play all day (8-5) and are a bit tired. He asks me if after the tourney I wanted to come over to his place to hangout and drink. I accepted but let him know that I don’t drink but can hangout for the vibes. He said that was cool and we leave the tourney to our houses to relax a bit and shower/ freshen up. He lets me know to come around 8:30 so he has time to eat dinner and do what he needs to do. I show up and greet his twin, his twins girlfriend and him. We sit and talk at the dining table all together when he asks if I wanted to go to his room. We all end up hanging out in the room and are just talking when some other friends showed up. Everyone starts drinking and eventually he is drunk. He ends up laying in his bed next to me and is being weirdly attentive to me. I’ve always had a problem with constantly shaking my legs when I’m laying down. I do it subconsciously. Out of know where he puts his hand on my thigh and says to chill. He proceeds to ask me if I’m ok because the shaking is an anxious tick. I let him know I’m good but he continues on about how he wants to make sure I’m ok and he doesn’t want me to be uncomfortable at his house. I again confirm I’m good and he gives me a doubting nod but accepts my answer.

That’s when he realized I had shaved my legs. He starts rubbing my thigh and says I didn’t know you shaved and starts commenting on my thigh tattoo. He says how cool it is and how much he likes it. All while still rubbing my thigh. I thank him and he removes his hand and continues talking with the group. Sometime after he asks me again if I am a top or a bottom. I let him know the same answer and he asks if when I bottom do I clean out. I let him know of course I have to make sure I’m clean and he Responds with ok good because I don’t like poop. I didn’t know how to take that. I am an over thinker so I decided to just leave it and not keep going on about it in my head. He ends up playing with my hair and asks “is this ok”. I answer yes and he comments on how he loves my haircut. Again I thank him and continue on with the group. He later asks me to take him to a gay club, I agree and he says, “ but will you protect me from the other guys, I agree again and he says , “see your my boyfriend”. He was smiling and leaning on me . Again I leave it. At one point o stood up to change a song when he comes up behind me and started acting out him giving me back shots. I smack him and he starts laughing and jumps back on the bed. He then asks me to come lay with him so he can cuddle me and take a picture of us to send to this guy that was trying to hit on him. I told him no because I didn’t want to start any issues and he says “ahh you’re probably right. I join him just sitting on the bed and continue on with everyone. Later that night it was getting late so I let him know I’m going to head out. I say bye to everyone and give him a hug and go to the living room to get my shoes and keys. I didn’t realize he followed behind me . I put my shoes on and when I turn around he has my keys and put my lanyard around my neck. I go to walk out and he follows again. I let him know he can stay inside and in a stern voice he says “no , I am walking you to your car. I say ok and he takes me to my car and says drive safe I’m going to track you until you get home. I hop in my car and head home.

Sorry this was so long I’m not very good at summarizing things but I’m confused on if he might like me. He has always said he is not gay but then said the I don’t know line and then is treating me like he may be interested. Again I am an over-thinker and over analyze a-lot of things so just seeking some clarification from fellow gays.

Am I crazy to think he may be interested or not.

No need to sugarcoat your answers I can handle blunt responses. Thankyou!!