Hi I am a 21 year old guy and over the last year have been on reddit and exploring a bit of bisexuality to the point that I have in fact met with a guy and gave him head as well as owning a dildo and butt plug.

All of it was really fun and hot in the moment but I felt like I arrived here because of a slight porn addiction and just the desire to get "kinkier" and find new turn ons.

I will never be able to come out due to the people around me not agreeing with anything other than heterosexuality and personally when I nut I hate this side of myself.

I really really want to stop and just go back to being straight. Women only, straight porn only, shit like that. I'm so scared of becoming sexually numb or even worse losing attraction to women. However, when I try and stop it's so hard. I've been a week off it so far and it was easy but now I've come to delete pictures and messages and it turned me on so much and I need to know how to stop.

Sorry if this is just a massive ramble but any advice is appreciated.