Soul mate. Yes there is such a thing. My story m

ay not be for all but maybe it can touch the right person to help me or maybe take a chance to help theirself.

After saying that I'm not sure if u want to find a sould mate.

I never really believed in that until out of the blue I met this 20 yr old boy. Me being a 37 yr old guy and never having a same sex relation before. Met this ki d and he and I just hit it off spending more and more time together. Neither one of us were ever in a gay relationship. So we were each others first.
I'm the beginning we were not very welcomed by my family but as time went on it did ease. He was just getting to the point where he was gona tell his family but unfortunately passed away leaving me to tell them why he lived with me a year and 7 moths.

I don't know if anyone else out there can remotely relate and I'm not a weirdo. We never really thought about the age gap but there were times I did comfort him when he was down. And let me tell you. He had one of the worst childhoods and exiting his teens lost his father to an overdose. But I would hold him anpd comfort him almost like he was my own kid and I never had kids and didn't want them. I would get so overprotective of him when my family would cause shit. I literally would go crazy with ange.

I guess having g a soul mate can make u do crazy things. I miss him so much and don't want to be alone. But I don't knowhow to even think or where to even look for someone. Knowing that he is truly the only person I think I can ever love in that manner.

So.etimes I wish I never would have met him cause the hurt I feel every day not having him just paralyzes me..

Does anyone else out there have or know what I'm going thru that can help me.