For context I 19M have known my best friend 19M since freshman year of high school around 13-14 and we have gotten along really well together when I came out to him a couple years back he said he already knew along with a few other friends that said the same thing well the other night I was home bored and watching a movie when he called out of the blue I answered and he sounded really awkward and he said check your Grindr and at first I was confused on why he would be telling me to check it out but then he told me the messages were from him and he sent me nudes now I have had a crush on him for a while but I always thought he was straight af but we talk a little more and he says that he is curious and wants to have his first gay experience with me and at first I didn’t know what to say I didn’t believe it but he came and picked me up and I gave him head and he has never cum from head and I made him burst in 5 minutes and he was saying holy shit repeatedly and to me it was literally fufilling a fantasy but idk what it was for him and I don’t know how to tell him I already had feelings before this I just thought I would never be able to act on them….i need some ideas