First of all, I will try my best to explain the situation as I am still confused myself and it’s also 1 am for me so I’m kinda sleepy but I need to talk about it.

I (19M) have never been in a relationship and always thought of being straight. During the years I’ve watched lots of porn and in the last 2 years I’ve found myself watching and enjoying gay porn.

I only recently realized I actually feel an attraction towards both women and especially men, and by reading some posts on reddit about guys with a similar situation as mine I’m starting to think I might be bi.

Fact is I’m not sure about it, after all I haven’t had any experience with any genders. I know that at the end of the day I shouldn’t worry about a label and just be myself, but being 19 y.o. and still not understanding who I truly am is somewhat frustrating.

As a way to overcome this problem I was thinking about experimenting with both men and women, after all what is a better way to find an answer if not this?

The problem is that I don’t know how to handle the situation. I don’t want to have anon sex as I fear about the possibility of getting STDs (I know nothing about the medications and how to prevent them other than using condoms so I’m really scared). I also don’t want to waste people time as they might be searching for a real relationship which I still don’t wanna be part of as I firstly want to discover myself.

I should also add that I can’t see myself in a relationship with a man, although the idea of it is really exciting. I guess it’s because of the homophobia I was exposed to since a young age which I’m overcoming day by day realizing how actually amazing is to love freely.

Can anyone give me advice?