Hi 👋 Kinda new to Reddit so maybe something like this has been asked already idk.

I’ve been pretty miserable lately, originally I was just frustrated, that turned into loneliness, which turned into depression. I’ve never done anything with a guy and I really want to. I just need advice on how I should go about doing it.

On one hand, I can use Grindr (I usually get to talk to guys that are exactly my type), but I absolutely hate hookup culture.

On the other hand, I can just wait it out, continue to suffer, use regular dating apps and go about my life and see what happens.

Not a long post but TL DR: I’m depressed/sexually frustrated, should I just do a hookup for my first time even though I feel like I’d hate it, or should I just live life and see what happens even though the pain of waiting is unbearable?