I’m 18 years old and bi-curious. Is it bad that I only want to experiment with much older men, like 50 ?

Hi. I’m new to Reddit but figured this might be the best place to get some honest feedback. I’m very much into girls and have been with two already. I know I’m not gay. But for a few years now I’ve had a big curiosity that won’t go away about being with another guy sexually. But it’s really specifically about being with much older men, like 50 and over. Back during covid I came across some gay erotic comic book stories and they were about old men being with young guys, like the dad/son, coach/player, babysitter, doctor/patient type stories with big age gaps. I don’t really know why. But I get very turned on thinking about it. I’ve never done anything with a guy other than read those stories and get turned on.

Is it bad that I have such a specific curiosity or desire to do stuff with someone that much older?

Should I just try to forget it or should I try to pursue something?

I guess I want to know if it’s a bad idea to pursue my curiosity. Like my horny impulses want it. But I don’t want it put myself in an unsafe position or do something that my family could find out about.

Thanks for reading. Don’t have anyone to talk to about this obviously.