I’m 28, 5’5”, 310 lbs. when I met my husband I was 17 and 180lbs. Some serious depression and mental health shit hit me hard and I kept putting on weight over the past 11 years. I’m realizing that my marriage is a toxic one where my husband is emotionally abusive and refuses to change. He is frequently without a job for long stretches of time ranging from 3 to 18 months at a time. I am at my wits end with his toxic behavior alienating me from my family and my friends and frequently causing us to be in financial ruin. It has gotten so bad that we hd to move into my brothers house and pay him rent. I have been offered by my family to move in with my parents but I would have to rehome my cats. I really don’t think I could ever do that especially since my mother can be quite the toxic individual herself and I don’t want to get rid of my cats.

I guess I’m just looking to see if it’s worth going through all the hassle oof a divorce if all that happens is that I’m left alone and won’t find anyone to love me again.

I could use some help and advice.