I’m starting to feel myself wanna be a bottom I’ve had very pleasurable experiences with objects I find it hot and pleasurable and playing is a great experience but I honestly can’t handle it I live in a home and missed my opportunity to buy a toy, my hand hurts in twisting my hand to the position and I can’t help but feel gross touching my ass for pleasure when my hand comes out smelling and brown even after I water out it. When I’ve had objects in it can feel pleasant until after when I get temporary blood in my stole which goes away fast and causes no pain I’m taking little amounts that I’d notice.

When I get the rare chance I can rarely use a nice long smooth object with a condom and can reach more comfortably and create pleasure the object also has a smaller girth and it feels amazing. Other times I get little bits of blood and irritation around my hole for example if I’m showing and use soap it creates this unpleasant feeling.

How do bottoms self pleasure themselves usually? There has to be some of you guys do it with or without toys because surely not everyone has access to partner or toys!