Hey guys, I am here to both put my words in to writing, but also to ask for some guidance for those of you that have gone through this. I'll give a bit of context to just how deep mine and my best friend's relationship (friendship) has become.

Him and I met each other roughly a year and a half ago, we quickly started hanging out quite a bit, and soon into the friendship, we would cuddle, make out, and he honestly wanted to do more. I wasn't quite ready for that yet, and he was very respectful of it.

Flash forward to now, we are absolute best friends, hangout all the time, talk pretty much daily, we've built such a deep sense of trust, comfortability, safety, and care for one another, however, through this, I have grown a love for him because of this incredible and very special friendship.

I eventually told him how I felt (which was about 1-2 months ago), he was very good about it, stating that while he did not feel romantic feelings back, he agreed how special and sacred this friendship is to him, and how much it means to him. We hugged it out and said a friendly "I love you." We hung out for the rest of the evening like nothing had changed. I seriously could not have asked for him to be better about it.

I somewhat expected this response, but also was maybe hoping for a different one. Especially since we are together multiple evenings a week, I always sleep over, we sleep in the same bed, occasionally cuddle, and occasionally fool around a bit. He constantly asks me for arm/back rubs. (Sex aside, we pretty much act like a couple).

I guess I am also just at a point where I am frustrated, I see him going after and drooling over absolute assholes. He is definitely in a place where he is attracted to the "excitement" and the "spontaneous" things, it's like the more unhealthy something is, the more he's chasing after it.

I am literally at a point of believing that he doesn't feel for me because our relationship is incredibly healthy, secure, and safe. Almost being "boring". We've known eachother for a decent amount of time, and in the beginning, he was always initiating cuddles, make outs, and wanted to do more, now, he doesn't really do any of that anymore, and I hate to say that I miss it.

I am just lost. He's my best effing friend, and I am his. It's almost like soul brothers. Moving on from the friendship is not an option, but I have no clue what to do with these emotions. The best friend in me wants to shake him and tell him to wake up and realize what he has right in front of him.

Sorry I know this is long, and probably sounds emotional, but I just need some guidance for those of you who have gone through a similar situation and managed to save the friendship. I've also heard of people in this situation where the friend eventually turns around due to some distance or realization and admits a love back when something has triggered them in their feelings. I'm not gonna ride of this thought, but it's an interesting one.

Anyways, thanks in advance you guys. For listening, and responding. He's my best buddy, I am just sorting out me loving him in more ways than one. I'd do anything for that little shit. <3