I unfortunately lost my mother a couple weeks ago and I am not ok. I have had cry fits, unexpected staring into space (sat at green light today) and the screaming anguish has calmed down.

I took 3 weeks off work but only a week after she passed. My employer is extremely progressive and I used up most sick time. Work has been ok but I get a Life/Death call and it can stàb me that I will take a break after.

My employer offers Better Help and my insurance takes it also. I havent found one yet as I have so much stuff to do. The Hospice center we used has groups but not sure it's for me. I am more on the loner/individual type.

As her wishes, there was NO funeral, NO wake. I, of us 3 children, want a public obituary/recognition but it I'd against her wishes.

Mi madre raised me alone and worked her ass off and I miss the fuck outta her!!! Te amo mucho mama. We didn't see this coming and she was gone within months.

It's been hard as I have been living with her since 2021. She had been falling down stairs more often and T2 Diabetic; I was the best person to help. I went through boxes etc so I wouldn't have some shock breakdown. I found all her kids books (Eng/Esp) she used to teach her preschoolers for over 20 years, all her sewing items. I found her photo boxes and all the 8mm filme (I don't get them tho, willed to sib).

I know its a day to day game. Has anyone had to go through this and have any advice?