Before I go on with my lengthy post, I would like to say, yes I have issues and I badly want this out my system.

My long time friend invited me to the gym which is scheduled tomorrow because he knows how badly I want to get bulked up. He knows I'm gay btw. He' straight, but we still at least have a well-knitted friendship. We both had been gym buddies before, which was before pandemic struck, but I wasnt able to continue trying to build my body since I simply had no motivation in doing so while he continued until today, so he thought it's a good idea I come with him starting tomorrow.

The only problem I'm facing right now is that I'm scared and worrying so much. What if I get unwanted hard-on while I'm at the gym? I get so easily hard and I'm scared they might misunderstand. Besides that, I'm also afraid of burly men due to part experiences I had when I was younger. What if things break into a fight because of my sexuality.

I'm probably overthinking too much.