Basically the title. I know I shouldn't care and everyone is different but I struggle so much with this feeling and it's making me really depressed.

I feel like I'm getting older (26) and I missed out on being young and having fun. I didnt do anything sexual until I was 20 and then didn't do anything again until I was 25. My current boyfriend has done so much and since he was a teenager. 3somes 4somes ect so much fun and wild stuff and he's been with more people than I ever will..

It just is hard not to get depressed. There's nothing I can do to change the fact that I will never have happy memories of being young and doing fun and wild stuff. I know I shouldn't dwell on it but its been really hard lately and talking to my boyfriend does not help at all. He never even tries to make me feel better I feel like he just thinks I'm a loser... it feels so isolating

My entire life has been so lonely and just imagine what it would have been like to feel wanted like when I was 18 or 19 or 20.. like that my life had some value. That I was worth someone's time that I deserve to be included and have fun like everyone else.. I dont know. I know no one deserves anything and these things aren't that important but I just don't know how not get sad