I need help. I’ve never done meth before and went on a bit of a bender. I did this after I was hurt by a female whom I realized had been using me for the last 4 years. I stopped using the day before yesterday, threw out all of my shit, and deleted any contacts associated with its acquisition.

However, right now I’m so hung up on the woman who used me, and how hurt I am. I literally can’t think of anything else. I have old friends over, there conversations are just blah blah blah to me. I should be interested, but can only think about how hurt I am. I literally feel like I’m losing it.

I’m never touching that shit again. Truthfully, not even enjoyable. It was stupid. But I need this pain to go away. I’m desperate. I’ve taken gabapentin, I’ve had 3 drinks, and I’m in my bedroom crying my eyes out. When does this end?