Ok so I could really use some help figuring something out and sadly the only person I can talk to is the person who presented the issue. Long story short after 4 months of seeing my therapist I finally asked what her thoughts on me were. While I was hoping for more clinical names and a diagnosis she said other things. Most were things I knew already but still felt good to hear. However one thing she said I just can’t accept. She told me I need to acknowledge my parents were horrible to me. I just can’t think that way. Did my parents do some shitty things? Yes but who’s parents are perfect? Did they do some things I know I should talk to them about one day? Yes. But god damn they were not horrible. They themselves went through so much in there lives including with me around. They did and sacrificed a lot for me. If anything the only real issue would be they depended on me alot even at a young age. I can’t hate them for that. Partially I view this as my fault cuz so far I’ve only vented about my parents with only a few good examples of them and defending them when she takes shots at them. Next time I’ll tell her some of the great things they did for me along with the issues they were dealing with. It is far too easy to say “yes they were horrible” than to say “they made mistakes but I fully understand most of them”. Idk I need someone to help and to vent to in my life. Maybe if I did I wouldn’t need a therapist who acts like a salesmen half the time. Seriously stop trying to over sell me sessions when I say I can’t afford them!