I (27m) have been having intimacy issues in all my past relationships. I’m still a virgin, I’ve done everything else but not the physical act. However when it comes down to the actual sex part I can never go through with it. Honestly it sucks mostly because my partner keeps asking me questions which I can see is hurting them. I try to explain to them that it’s not her. I give a list of reasons of what happened. Now whenever I’m online I may see a female who is showing more than what is considered modest however I feel terrible for even looking at it. I saw a clip of this cosplay girl dressed in a skimpy outfit and I felt awful for just looking at it. I feel disgusted with myself for even finding it attractive. I try to block everything that may trigger this on youtube, Instagram, Snapchat, Facebook etc… but something always comes up. I know sexuality isn’t a bad thing but I get this nauseous feeling whenever I see a female relatively attractive. Not is a nervous way but I feel shameful. The only thing I can think of is when I was younger my parents would always tease me for even looking at a girl. Sometimes I would end up crying and locking myself in my room. Is this possibly related? Does anyone else ever feel like this? Is there anything I can do to get over this guilt?