The obvious answer that has worked for me up until these last 2 years when things stirred up again was just suck it up, work and then workout and build my own life. I moved a state away 7 years ago to get away from my family. My mom left her on and off abusive husband, I told her settle close to me so I can help, instantly she has my psychopath brother move in with her and shit just hit the fan. My brother got arrested, my mom showed up at my apartment drunk at 1 am, scaring the piss out of myself and my gf, and has drunk texted me. All the stuff I worked so hard to escape from has moved in close to me, I’m so mad at myself for trusting her. It’s gotten better slowly, but the is ALWAYS another hiccup. She tries to be a good mom but is such a mess herself. I’ve went from being in phenomenal shape, disciplined, to an addict of nicotine and gas station legal drugs, making myself broke. I know ultimately this is my fault, but I used to handle this so well and feel after the second wave of this mess it just broke me. I’m so angry mainly at my mom, I’ve texted her all of this and feel she doesn’t understand completely and only worries about how bad my brother is doing. She’ll drop groceries off randomly ect ect, but I’m just a mess. Any advice? I’m working out tomorrow. I have waves of just such anger towards her with horrible thoughts (never would act on any, uncomfortable intrusive thoughts). I just want to get back to being who I was, this family drama moved in right next to me. Sorry for the long text, if anything maybe the vent will help. Hitting the gym tomorrow. I want my mom to know how angry she makes me but then I feel bad when I snap on her. I feel like I’m being so weak with my choices though but drugs are the only thing that makes the extreme anger go away.