I’m on my 4th therapist since the beginning of 2022! I don’t want to just keep saying the same stuff over an over again. I thought I was doing better but I’m here now waiting to fall asleep after taking my sleep medicine thinking about how I just hate life where I’m at! I’m just tired. I take my medicine but I cannot for the life of me remember to take it EVERYDAY. I will forget at least once maybe twice a week I’ll either be fine because I’m busy I’m having fun or I’ll be miserable and depressed I’ve been on meds for over a year now! From what I know it’s supposed to help my brain produce these chemicals and work on it’s own but I don’t see that happening. I honestly don’t see myself bringing this up with my therapist I’ll just pretend that I’m ok until I am ok. I’ve shared and I’ve spoken about my trauma which my newest therapist does of course know about I just don’t see this going anywhere with him even though it’s only been like 4 sessions. I don’t know what to do. It’s like I’m a broken vase I can’t be fixed. I keep trying and nothing is working I’m not ok! I’m not happy