I recently came out to my brother. And he had a mostly positive reaction (I say mostly because he's still a bit young and he's still learning about all this stuff) and accepts me as his sister now, rather than his brother. And now because of that positive reaction, I'm starting to think I should change my plan to come out.

Originally, I was planning to go to somewhere super far away for college and coming out through Skype or something from there. Even my brother was included in that list of people I won't come out to till then. But recently, an acquaintance I blurted spur-of-the-moment to suggested that I should come out to him since he (the acquaintance) had a bi brother who came out to him when he was younger too. And so I did and I love my bro even more now.

And because of that positive reaction, I wanna change my plan to come out on my birthday. I just feel like they'd be much more open to listen to me then, and we'd be together since we usually eat out then. It's on December 10 so I only (or should I say still) have around 5 months. Plenty of time to lose my nerve. So I need a way to keep my confidence till then.

Something that helps is one of my online friends who supports me very much. She said that she plans to send me some of her old clothes, especially the bigger ones (since I'm around 5'7 while she's 5'4), and even make me my own dress (she said it might look bad but I don't care, it'll be a dress either way). She even said she's been planning this for a while now (like 6 months at least). She just doesn't know how to give it since she doesn't want to out me. She's so super duper, unbelievably, undeniably nice. And so when I told her how I might come out on my birthday, she said it was perfect and she might be able to send it as a late birthday/ early Christmas present if all goes well.

And another friend (IRL this time) just told me that if I do come out on my birthday, she would come with me to get our ears pierced. Like she would physically come with me to somewhere just so we can get pierced ears together.

And all this is really validating and confidence building and I really want to come out truly now. But I don't know if I can keep my confidence for that long. But if I do and all goes well, I'm sure everything would be so much better. Cause it'll be like new year, new wardrobe, new self, new me.

Anyway, sorry for this rant/cry for help/slash somewhat positive post... I don't even know what I'm going for here. But long story short, how do I keep my confidence that long because I feel like even the universe is telling me to come out right now? Like, can you even keep confident enough to come out for 5 months straight?