Red Pill is still dissolving. Reading through side bar. Lifting for 7 weeks now. Still a lot of ways to go. But this is what happened yesterday and I know I didn't handle this 100% correct. Tried to apply some RP knowledge but know I failed a few times. Wanted to get thoughts from more experienced here. So to the point...

Yesterday morning wife texts at 8AM and says "Have a good day. I love you." I read it and didn't respond back (texts for logistics only). She texts again at 10AM "So you're ignoring me?" I again don't respond back (again texts for logistics only... plus shit test). But on my lunch I text her "Doggy style tonight?" She responds with a thumbs up and smiley face. I go radio silent rest of day.

I get home and hug and kiss my kids. Walk up to her sitting down and give her a kiss. Start playing with the kids. Soon it's time for my daughter's dance practice. So she asks "Are you taking her?" I responded with a grin, "Sure, but you go pick her up. It's freezing out there." She gives me a look of 'are you kidding?' It's time to leave so I take my daughter and drop her off at dance. But I don't go home like I usually do. I go to the bar/grill next door to have a beer and wait the 45 minutes. Soon my wife is calling. I answer. I thought about not answering to get her hamster wheel going. But I figured, wth I'm at the bar. There's background music and people talking. Let's get her hamster wheel going even more. I answer and she asks if I'm coming home. "Nope. Staying here until practice is out." (not really revealing where I was exactly at.) She says ok and she will start dinner.

Get home, she's preparing dinner. I walk up behind her, smack her ass, wrap my arms around her waist and give her a kiss on the neck. She smiles and goes about preparing dinner. Rest of the night was spent playing with kids and getting them ready for bed. I'm laying on the couch watching TV waiting for the little cockblockers to fall asleep. She comes over and sits on my lap. Show ends and I say "Come to bed." She follows. She gets in bed and proceeds to cuddle next to me so that I'm the big spoon. I know what this position means. She wants held and if held too long, she's falling asleep. So I roll back on to my back. She asks "What are you doing?" And I said "Come lay on my chest." Mainly to get her to face me so I can start kissing her and initiating things. She gets mad and and moves away. Says I'm "acting weird". OK I thought, I'm taking this "I'm the captain" too fast and I'm still not at a HSV to be leading this much too fast. Few minutes go by. I scoot up to her and spoon her. I start kissing her neck and back. She doesn't budge. OK, I'll advance a little bit further to see if she reacts. I start rubbing her hips and thighs. She starts to roll back towards me, opening a way for my hand to go down her pants. So I obliged.

Now this is where it turns.

It feels like she just isn't into it. Which is fine, I'll take it like a man. But she states "I'm sorry. I don't know what is wrong with me." I ask her what she meant and she said "I don't know". I didn't say anything just laying there. I felt my emotions rising as this was the first time she's basically said "no" to me. Usually she says "you can, but I'm tired and I'll just lay there". Which is no fun, so I don't even try. So I kiss her on the forehead and say I'm going downstairs to read. She comes back with "You're mad at me. Say it.". I take a minute to continue laying there and STFU as leaving without saying anything would seem like I'm non-verbally saying "yes, I am mad." I kissed her forehead again and said goodnight. Got up and went downstairs to read. 10 minutes later she sends a text stating "You didn't get what you wanted, so I guess you don't care to talk about it. Good night." I pondered if I should text her back, go upstairs to talk to her or STFU. 10 minutes go by and I text her back "Don't have anything to say. If you do, you know where I am at." Didn't hear back from her. When I went to bed a hour later, she was asleep.

She leaves for work before I wake up (I drop my kids off at school before I go to work). So I don't know how she was this morning. Not sure how she will be this evening. My plan is going about my day. When I get home, act like nothing happened. Kiss and hug the kids. Give her a kiss. Playtime with kids. Dinner. Chores. Get kids to bed. Try to initiate again.

So my questions: Did I fuck up texting her in the morning? Don't think I did since I waited hours later and it was to start some game. Did I fuck up by going to the bar? Don't think I did since I was just trying to get her hamster wheel going. Did I fuck up by answering the phone at the bar? Think I kind of did. Hamster wheel might have spun more than it did. But I kind of pussed out and answered to be honest. Did I fuck up in bed? Thinking back, that might have been just a comfort test. But it felt like at the time she wanted me to get in her frame to just cuddle. But I felt the need to stay in my frame to try to get what I wanted. Which didn't work out. I know what I said afterwards probably came out a little awkward. The beta part I'm trying to get rid of wanted to get pissed off for declining me and then it wanted to sit and talk about her problems. I made a judgement call of STFU and having her miss me in bed with her to be the correct call in the situation. Did I fuck by texting her back after all that? I probably shouldn't have. She would of saw it as I was too mad to text her back or going upstairs to talk to her.

Thoughts? Comments? Critiques?