I am expecting some harsh replies here, and I do believe that it's probably warranted.

I have done the suggested reading. I understand conceptually, but have absolutely not internalized many of these things. I can trace my lack of progress back to a major hurdle that I must overcome, and that is my lifelong insecurity.

I am 30, 6'2" tall, masculine, I began lifting as a teen to overcome by body insecurity. I didn't start lifting from a healthy place, but diet and weightlifting have been in my life for years. I now am exceptionally fit, and it's done very little for my internal dialogue, other than given me something to nitpick about myself.

I feel that my insecurity is extremely crippling. I was honestly wondering if anyone here has gotten over their intense insecurity?

I exited a marriage by choice this year. She was a great woman, and I am not a man that can lead her. I told her how low value she was for wanting to be with a loser like me. I divorced her.

I am to the point where I don't spend one dime on myself, I am denying myself food... I feel very insecure about my life. I wake up everyday in fear. I see all of these people on the MRP forums, and they seem to believe that life is just awesome, and a wonderful thing. I don't feel that this is true.

I wonder if anyone has any suggestions... I am at 0 self worth, and I totally objectively acknowledge that I am worthless. How does one change this belief?

The rationale here seems to be thus:

You work hard and then become a worthy guy, etc. Other people start to perceive you differently... but how do I perceived myself differently!?