Hey everyone, I really hope I don't end up feeling more scared after I post this lol. I am kind of at a loss as to what to do with what's been going on with me and my doctor has not been much help unfortunately. This is going to be long so bear with me.

Starting in middle school, I would experience what felt like my heart skipping sometimes or at night when I tried to sleep I would get a REALLY hard single beat or it felt like my heart stoped for a brief second and then went back to normal. This was obviously terrifying so I told my parents and went to a cardiologist. They checked me and did the 24 hour holter monitor thing, the test came back totally fine. I do have anxiety so the doctor just said "its your anxiety flaring up, its harmless." Years go by, I ignore the feeling, it becomes whatever to me.

2015, I start randomly experiencing my heart beating super fast for no reason and it doesn't calm down. I sometimes get a fluttery or skip feeling with it still, but for the most part it is consistent, just faster than it should be (I wouldn't say CRAZY fast, but higher than 100 bpm, even while sitting). THIS scares me too because its not a temporary thing, it goes on and on and on. I also remember feeling kinda lightheaded when this is going on, but I have no fainting episodes. A couple weeks go by of this and I tell my dad. My dad's a doctor and he listens to my heart and he says it does seem fast even though it sounds normal, and he asks me if im anxious because it sounds to him like a panic attack. But what panic attack lasts for weeks straight? He takes me down to his hospital and they do an EKG. EKG is normal, they send me home again and chock it up to anxiety. I still have the symptoms for awhile, I would say in total a month. I try to ignore it though because I was told it was nothing and my family is kind of annoyed with me since they also think its nothing. It goes away just as suddenly as it appeared. I have no symptoms for 6 years.

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Fast forward to this past April. Out of the blue, the SAME thing starts happening again. Fast heart rate (this time I tracked it on a heart rate app and the highest i've gotten to is about 120 bpm), fluttery/shuddering feeling, shortness of breath mostly when i'm talking, feeling kinda spacey and faint but never actually fainting, and just overall extremely uncomfortable and worried. I also notice that I seem really gassy, which I didn't remember with the other 2 episodes years before. I can't get an appointment with my dr till end of April. By that point, this had been going on for about 3 weeks. All she does is talk to me, ask me if I ever had an EKG or holter, I said yes to both and said both were normal, she goes "yeah, weird how that can happen huh?" like she thought I was being silly then. She does an EKG and she says it seems normal but she will refer me to a cardiologist for a holter and she wanted blood tests. Doesn't listen to my heart or check it in any other way, all she did was talk to me and do the EKG. Her referral doesn't go through for another 3 weeks (Medi Care, the absolute worst). Of course by this point, i'm not having the symptoms anymore. I go in, they put the holter on me, say they are doing it for 3 days this time, and send me home. First day, no symptoms. 2nd day, i'm kinda sorta feeling it, but not nearly as bad as I was a few weeks prior. 3rd day same, kinda feeling it and later that day the monitor came off. The day after I had the monitor on, OF COURSE my symptoms fully come back, but there's nothing to catch them. I'm kinda worried about this, but I think to myself "well its okay, the cardiologist is going to call me with the results and i'll tell them then". Days go by and no call. I call the cardiologist and they say "oh no, we don't help anymore from this point. We just supply the technology for the test, you have to go through your doctor now." Now i'm REALLY worried because my dr is the one that barely did anything and took weeks to actually send in the referral! I call her office and explain all this and say I really need to talk to someone about the results because i'm still having issues and the lady at the front desk says "okay well we don't have any information yet. I'll put a note in to have someone call you." We hang up and I'm thinking oh my gosh, if this is now through her, she's not going to do anything, these people may kill me. I try to see if I can see a cardiologist without any kind of formal referral and for Medi Cal you cannot. I almost start crying right then and there because I am SO freaked out about this and feel like i'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I know what's going on, but not why and NO ONE seems to be taking it seriously. There's been so many nights recently where i've gone to bed terrified that i'm gonna die in the night with this. I have no idea what this is or how to get rid of it, even to lessen it and I have NO idea if its serious or not. Of course when you try to google your symptoms, you get horribly scary things like atrial fibrillation. I don't THINK its that because i'm a relatively healthy 27 year old female, but I don't KNOW its not that. I know my anxiety for sure probably isn't helping, but when i'm having an episode its nearly impossible to ignore because it feels so scary. I am truly at my wits end here. Sure, she may call. Sure I can get the blood work done and I probably will since nothing else has probably determined much. I'm still afraid though, even with BOTH things, if both come back fine, I may just get ignored and told again "ah its your anxiety, you're fine!", even though nothing much has really been done. I know the fact that its hard to catch makes this situation all the more hard because I never know when i'll have an episode and for how long, I wish it wasn't.

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I know this post was a mess and super long. My question to you all is with what I said, do you guys think I should be concerned? If any of you are doctors and nurses, does what I said sound like it could be a particular thing and if so, is it serious? I know there's so little help you can offer because you're just someone at. computer, but i'm really desperate. Thank you SO much for reading this!!!