Question:Should an AGP man like me consider an open marriage so that my heterosexual wife can enjoy occasional sex with a more masculine man?

My situation: During the last 10 months, my wife felt uncomfortable with my lack of authenticity about my AGP. Until discovering Phil Illy’s work and Ray Williams’ videos, I didn’t fully understand that this is a sexuality, not “just a fetish”. I should specify that we’ve been married for 7 years, and I told her about my desire to crossdress before we even started dating (I didn’t quite know the term AGP back then). Treating my condition as “only” a fetish led to a lot of repression, and sneaking around (posting photos of myself online, chatting with other sissies/femboys and of course men who found me attractive). Because of my repression, I had a recent escalation in the last 10 or so months after my son was born (he’s now 17 months). Due to some underlying issues in our marriage (not AGP, more on that in a bit), my wife cheated on me. It was a heartbreaking experience, and one that didn’t completely surprise me because I’m AGP. Since the affair, my wife and I have become radically transparent about our wants and desires, including my desire to crossdress more frequently, wear makeup, and privately express myself more in our home. I also showed her some of Ray’s videos and shared with her my recent revelation about AGP as a sexuality, rather than a “just” a fetish. Surprisingly, she has been way more attracted to my authenticity, and she doesn’t feel this cognitive dissonance she previously felt from me. She appreciates this new perspective on AGP and has been extremely accepting. It’s been a huge relief and the love from her has been amazing. She even has painted my toenails and given me makeup tips etc.

But of course, there’s a wrinkle here.

My wife is heterosexual. She loves having sex with me, however she loved her sexual experiences with the more masculine guy that she cheated on me with. She wants to see him again while still staying married to me. And given my AGP tendencies, I can’t deny that there are strong elements of AGP that have influenced my own interest in this arrangement. When she first told me about the cheating, I admitted to her that some of my AGP fantasies had included her being with a “real man” because I want her to be happy and fulfilled. So it was freaky to me that that fantasy literally came true without me knowing it (at the time). I hate the concept of cucking. I don’t like that fetish and so much of the shameful culture around it (especially the stigma). I really wish AGP could just be it’s own separate thing but now that she’s experienced this she wants to continue it sometimes. And I’m not going to lie that the whole thing of course is a sexually gratifying experience for me. Based on our conversations, it sounds like I am sexually compatible with her 98 out of 100 times. But there’s this 2% of the time where she’d like to experience a masculine man in the bedroom. And I completely understand why she feels that way because she’s heterosexual. She’s also wanting me to explore my feminine side a lot more and would be fine with me expressing myself on reddit for example. I’ve never seen evidence that open relationships work. And I wouldn’t even consider ours “open” if we did this. Perhaps “ethically non-monogamous for a very specific situation and person, not open to anyone that comes along”.

I am being delusional here, or is this potentially a viable situation? And more broadly speaking, is an arrangement like this a good way for married AGP’s with heterosexual wives to manage this?