Sort of a metaphysical, esoteric, religious post/ approach to paraphilia. But keep an open mind even if you believe were just randomly here because two people had sex.

I cannot see my thoughts, but can see the effect of them through dysphoria and dysfunction with my sexuality.

Sometimes i feel as though, i am watching myself. Sometimes i feel as though i have full control but i am tired.

Theres so much unexplained shit in this world and truth is stranger than fiction. This entire concept of agp is bizzare but true. What is to say this isn’t a demon that attached itself to me as a child?

My ego is masculine, maybe most egos are idk.

I cannot pinpoint where the demon is, but i can feel the effects. Is it my masculinity repressing embracing my full self or is it the femininity trying to destroy my masculinity?

I theorize that all men have feminine traits some way more than others but my feminine “energy” is wanting to physically take over.

How interesting is it that during this time of our lives exists medication to physically alter our bodies from within. I have been drawn to that treatment ever since i learned about it 10 years ago. Anyway this post is will probably be deleted by me or mods. Hopefully someone out there through the collective can sort of see where i am going with this and we can have ongoing productive dialog. Much love 🫶