We're both in our early 20s. She said she wasn't attracted to me, after I said I was afraid I might fall in love with her. Then I told her I don't think it's like that, not that it would change anything, but I was pretty sure I'm asexual. Never felt attraction, but I'm attracted to her romantically. I told her about traumatic past sexual experiences where I tried to force myself to do it and I was fuckinh shivering or crying during them, and she starts crying telling me she has similar experiences and that she's always just been doing what other girls were like dating. I'm pretty sure I'm demiromantic, because this is the first time I've really ever had this sort of feeling about a girl. So I told her I think I like her, she says her piece and basically comes out to me too. I haven't asked if she meant sexuallyshe wasn't attracted to me, because I wonder if she is romantically attracted to me. Idk she's probably the person I'm closest to in life right now, but this is making me feel like absolute shit. Like I mean fucking anxious as fuck. I wish I was just romantically "picky" or whatever the fuck again, I didn't know how bad this felt.