Hi all!! Sorry if this post is a bit long but I need some guidance. When I was a teen I came out as bisexual, I was having intercourse with cis-men as a coping mechanism for my depression. It never felt good, I never enjoyed myself, I was always bored. I did not go into it thinking "oh this will be wonderful!" or "I really like this guy and so I want to be this level of intimate". I never felt that way. Then for awhile I bounced around with being pansexual, bisexual, and gay. Now I'm at the point of just deep thinking and I realized I never once had a desire or urge to have intercourse with men or women. I think women are beautiful and I'll say as much, but my thoughts don't go to "I want to sleep with her". It'd more like I check a girl out, appreciate her beauty and carry on. With men I have strong anxiety towards so any male attention(from non family members) makes me sick. I felt like this even when I was doing the "coping". So I now know I'm 100% not into men. I find women beautiful but I don't want to be intimate like that with them. I'm okay with kissing or hand holding or touching places I'm okay with. I thought I would have what I am and I feel down pact by now (I'm 25 going on 26 in two months). I know I don't need a label but I'm the kind of person who needs labels in order to process things (maybe it's my OCD I don't know) Any advice or links or whatever you think could help would be great!