Hello! I posted in r/asexual recently after giving it some thought. I got a response that sparked some light into what i want from now on in my relationships... And i think (after reading a lot of terminology..) that im in the gray area of asexuality. And possibly be aromantic.

Is this possible if i was or am sexually active? In the past i used to be very curious about pleasure and how it was to be with someone that way, everyone made a huge deal about it and i wanted to be desirable to other people, (mostly guys because i didnt think i could be desired by a girl but thats a whole another story lol) because i wanted more friends and connections, try something new. All this when i was like 12 so yeah puberty and highschool.
But now a few years after starting that (im 21 now) and while overcoming years long sadness, i noticed something that bothers me since the very begining: i dont feel really into it on my relationships like everyone says it is. Now I do have a bf and i love him, and i love my friends, i like telling them nice things etc but i dont miss them or that stuff, i dont really like or prefer to demonstrate affection or receive it lol. Same with sexual attraction, i do find people cute or whatever i really like how they move and talk and look, yet i dont wanna touch, kiss or have sex with them. The times i did want was because they wanted to do it with me and i thought it was a great oportunity to enjoy a new experience with someone.

I justt like looking at people i find beautiful (that means to me when i like their looks and their personality, i dont care for genders, never did and i didnt felt the need to explain it in the past until everyone was straight or gay) enjoying time with them cuddling, and sometimes that includes sex because yknow, bonding. But any other activity makes me feel happier and more connected to them, i enjoy knowing them and sharing stuff or activities, the sex is just another way to express things that can be said with other activities. I feel like a scam tho because i do enjoy it at some extent and i do have a libido, so im not 100% uninterested in it, i just dont really want to share it with another being or i dont want to act upon it.

Whatdoido!? Is this correct? Maybe im thinking too much?

Edit: i should add that my bf is like, very sexual and romantic, i think its cute but it also puts a lot of pressure in me to be able to express my feelings in the same level he does with me, i think it is an important difference on how we live our stuff in the same romantic relationship, riight..?