(tw sex and sexual discussion) Hi, I'm ace spec (demisexual) and my boyfriend is aroace fully. He is okay with me having romantic and sexual attraction towards him, and he loves me in his own way and I'm very happy that we can make this work without having the same attractions. Here is one problem: since starting testosterone (we're both ftm), my libido has become way harder to control, and I find myself fantasizing about him a lot. I feel kind of guilty for thinking about him in that way, even tho I know I can't control it and that it's natural. He doesn't want to try anything and doesn't know if he'd like sex, which I 100% respect and understand. My question is: what can I do? How can I satisfy my libido ? I am demisexual so seeing someone else is kind of not ideal (though he is okay with this we talked about it already) since the attraction would take "too much" time to come. I also have a lot of sextoys but they only seem to "work" for like an hour, and they're not giving me the proximity and physical touch I want from sex. I am taking every advice, wether it's how to reduce my sexual attraction to my boyfriend, how to "gain" sexual attraction to someone else easily and quickly, how to satisfy my libido in a better way alone... Anything!