Sooo I started this account in hopes of finding a FWBs sort of deal... Thinking that maybe I'm demisexual and I just gotta make friends first or something... But I feel no attraction what's so ever like if someone sends a pic of what they look like all I can say is "nice" cause I only feel like wow that's a person indeed! Cool beans good to know lol... I'm genuinely enjoying talking to people and I'm looking forward to possibly meeting up with a few to see if we hit off irl... I'm not saying I don't like them... I just would feel the same about them as I would any friend... But I guess I'm just concerned with well not being attracted or feeling that supposed spark that makes me go oh yeah I wanna have sex with that person... Would that be unfair to them? I don't wanna be leading anyone on...

So far the only reason I'm finding when I think on it why I'd be willing to have sex in the first place is a. it would make them feel good and b. I'm curious... I do engage in masturbation but I've never really imagined a person or anything in particular? Like I'll just focus on imaging the feelings of have sexual intercourse... Ive had fantasies and even talked about them but I guess the best way to describe is that they feel very unpersonal? As if their a story I've written and I'm proud of it and get happy flutters when someone is like oh yeah that's hot... I hope that makes sense....

I could go into my past relationships/crushes which only developed after the person admitted to having feelings for me first. Only then did I start considering them sexually/romantically? Which is super confusing and feels more like I'm using people and I feel awful about not being able to feel that attraction back... Even me posting about looking for FWB is using their attraction to me to be my green light for even thinking about romance/sexual things....

I guess I just need someone whose more knowledgeable on these types of romantic and or sexual spectrums... I'm having alot of conflicting feelings and I think having a label for how I feel would help? Maybe? Gives me something to hyper focus on and research lmao... Idk any advice would be amazing thanks for reading through all this! 🥰